Jun 6, 2013

Courage, My Love

I know I'm not the only one who has felt this way. This is the situation: I had a great couple of weeks.  I ran. I ate well. I juiced. I could feel my body slimming down. My husband noticed the change. And all was right with the world. Then, a few days of poor eating, no real exercise, a frumpy attitude, grumpy kids, bloating, a trip to Dairy Queen (or two) and I feel like I'm back where I started.

I'm battling myself right now. I don't know why, which is tough because I usually do. I usually understand why I'm sabotaging my efforts and falling off the wagon. But right now, I'm at a loss. I know we've all felt this at some point, but for some reason, it feels shameful.  It's as though I know I'm supposed to be better. I'm supposed to have a handle on this. I'm supposed to be setting an example for my kids, right? Haven't I worked through this shit already?  Didn't I just knock out a 75 pound loss last year? Didn't I say goodbye to my crappy habits, emotional eating and self-worth issues from childhood? Wasn't that me?

Well. I'm trying to be here in the moment. I'm saying my mantras. "A day doesn't make a week and a week doesn't make a month." I'm slogging back through old inspirational posts from the blog but it's not really helping. I guess this is what they (the proverbial "they) call a funk. I guess I'm in it, eh? I'm in a funk.


Kristine Mitchell said...

So with you in this. Here's to a new tomorrow.

morganmcclure said...

sweet sarah. sending bunches of love your way. forgive yourself. this too shall pass. xo

Anonymous said...

You used to blog more frequently and posted weigh-ins each week. You wrote about your success and struggles, and readers could applaud your results. I miss both.

Chimmy said...

if you're going through a funk, keep going. eventually you'll end up at its end you can begin again.

don't be so hard on yourself.

you're keeping me inspired. and i've been in a funk for ages.slowly crawling out.


Anonymous said...

You are always an inspiration. Good times and bad you are an amazing person and mother.