Do you count calories?

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Question: Do you count calories?
Nope. When I began looking into eating plans I quickly became overwhelmed with the point systems and calorie calculators and good calories vs. bad calories stuff.  I realize that these programs have merit and have worked beautifully for some people. But I knew early on that if I was going to stick with a healthy eating plan, counting calories was out. As I write this, the little voice inside my head is saying, "But Sarah, the only way to lose weight is to burn more calories that you consume! How do you expect to stay on top of your consumption if you have no idea how much you're eating?"

Honestly, I don't know how many calories I'm consuming. And I really don't care. I'm only concerned with one simple question: "Is this food a nutritious, healthy choice?" I didn't get fat by eating avocado sandwiches on sprouted grain bread. I didn't get fat eating fistfuls of raw nuts. I didn't get fat because I went overboard on the olive oil and almond butter. I got fat eating refined sugars, and refined carbs.  But I can't tell you how many diet books I've read that warn against the fat content of raw nuts, avocados and olive oil and offer instead a list of low fat food items laced with artificial sweeteners and preservatives. Weird, right? It just doesn't make intuitive sense to me.

Question: Do you write down everything you eat?
Nope. But I think its a great habit for some people. I am an avid journaler, and while I don't write down every morsel of food that touches my lips, I do write how I feel about what I'm eating. I'm more concerned with eating well and feeling well and that's what I write about. I also write down my gratitudes and accomplishments for the day. When I write about these things in an integrated way, I find that I am better able to integrate them in my life.

healthy food + active body + good thoughts + grateful heart = smaller sarah

If I were forced to write down my weight loss plan, it would be the equation above. I know when I've consumed good healthy food because I feel light and energized. And I know when I've had junk because I fell like ass in a bucket. For me, I equate writing down each bite with punishment. The only reason to write it down is if you ate something "off plan". I don't need a piece of paper staring back at me that says, "17 Oreo cookies and a Red Bull". I find it far more useful to address the emotional side affects of my food consumption in journal form. That's why instead of counting calories, I count the good feelings that came from the good food that allowed me to enjoy the good moments.

Why do you blog?

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Question: I'd be embarrassed to write about myself. Why did you decide to blog about your process?

There are lots of reasons I started the blog as my first step towards losing the weight. One of the main things that inspired me to start this journey was reading another weight loss blog. I was feeling bad about myself and then read about another woman's success and thought, "Why not me?" So I wanted to give back by charting my own progress with a blog.

I was already an avid journaler and blogger, so starting a blog was a logical step for me. It helps me to stay accountable and clearly work through the tougher moments along the way. Sure, its embarrassing at times, but we have to be willing to look foolish if we want to be bold and create something new. And as a reader, I want the "real deal". I don't want anything sugar-coated. I want the writer to trust me and reveal the essence of who they are - and I assume that you want the same. It seems that when I write about the more difficult or humiliating portions of this journey, the reader response is more engaged. And the support I have received from my readers cannot be overestimated. Sometimes the only reason I stuck to the plan, or went to a work-out I didn't want to attend was because I knew I would have to report back here for my Monday weigh-in.

Another reason to share is to create solidarity. Most everything marvelous that has ever happened to me was at the hands of a group of supportive, compassionate women. Women must buoy and help each other. We need to speak with honesty, fearlessness and compassion about our trials and tribulations. I wanted to add a voice of reason and humor to the emotional struggle of losing weight.

Looking in the mirror while naked?

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Question: Of course the spiritual, mental, and emotional payoffs must be amazing, but I want to know what, when you look in the mirror now with no clothes on, makes you grin from ear to ear?

This is a really sweet question and I'm definitely in favor of celebrating the boons of my hard work. Yes, when I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror naked, I'm very happy to see that I am smaller and more toned. It's thrilling to see my shape change so drastically. But that's where it ends. Like many women, I have a hard time looking at myself in the mirror while naked. The first look is always fine. But upon closer inspection, I start noticing the extensive map of stretch marks on my stomach and thighs. My breasts, which have nursed two children, look like dishtowels with buttons. My hips, which have birthed two babies, are genetically predisposed to look like tater-tot casseroles. But honestly none of this really brings me down. Why? Because most people never see me naked, including me. My kids see me naked once in a blue moon, and they don't care what I look like. Jack sees me naked, but he generally doesn't care because he loves me unconditionally and gets to have sex with me.

The thing that makes me "smile from ear to ear" is how I look clothed! I love to see my workout clothing fit nicely. I love to wear a pair of jeans that fit well and aren't composed entirely of spandex. I love going to a clothing store, knowing that whatever I try on is probably going to fit. Its such fun to expand my closet to include tailored blouses, skirts and even a pair of heels. Most plus sized women are trapped by the fashion industry. There is really very little available to them, much less something stylish and inexpensive. Until now, I hated walking into a clothing store. Now, I look forward to it!

For Christmas, my husband gave me a turquoise, long-sleeved running shirt. Even though it didn't quite fit at first, I loved it. And as the months pass, it fits better and better. It's such fun to grow out of my old wardrobe and into an entirely new one. Here I am in my running shirt - the first photo taken in February and the other taken this morning after my run.

And just for fun, here's my four-year-old giving me snuggles after my run!

What do you do when you get discouraged?

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Question: What was the most discouraging time or event for you and what did you do to push through?
All of my discouraging moments, be they small or big, were at my own hands. My most discouraging moments were when I displayed old behavior patterns concerning food. I'd go a few months without binge eating and think, "Yay, I'm cured!" Then a tough week followed by a killer menstrual period, Mercury in retrograde, or a terrible hospital visit for Charlie or other normal life event would catapult me back into a bowl of ice cream or four.

When I was spiraling, my first step was to ask myself only one question. "What do I really need right now?" The answer was never four bowls of ice cream. The answer was always something else: some fresh air to clear my head, better sleep, a hug, a phone conversation with my mom, etc.  Step two was always to go get the thing I really need. But step two is difficult, because it usually involved asking someone for help, which for most people (especially women who are pretending to be supermom - that's me) is very difficult.

Eating an entire pint (or before the smaller sarah year - a 1/2 gallon) of mint chip alone after the kids have gone to bed is easy and immediate. No one has to see and I don't have to ask for help.  Asking my husband for an extra hour to myself or for a friend to watch my kids for 30 minutes is difficult and takes forethought.

So how do you bridge the time between the impulse to binge (or other vice) and the relief of a planned respite? That's tough. This might not work for everyone, but here is the usual progression for me:

1. Feel the discouraging moment.
2. Feel the impulse to eat something bad for me.
3. Answer the question, "What do I really need right now".
4. Immediately make a plan to get what I need.

Making a plan to get what I need is usually two-fold.  I journal most every day, so I sit down and write about how I am feeling and what I need.  Then I make a phone call (during the daylight hours) or write an email (if it was a midnight attack of the munchies) asking for help. This is why it is SO important to participate in a supportive community. No one has ever responded with an outright "no". If they can't help immediately by having a cup of coffe with me or watching my kids for a spell, they usually offer something else at a different time.  Knowing that relief is coming makes the discouraging moments more manageable.  Does this mean I never falter because I have my "trusty" system in place?  No, of course not.  But those moments are far and few in between.  And in the process of asking for help, I've solidified and strengthened my relationships. And I have been able to return the favor for them!  That reciprocal energy boosts my mood and makes me feel great and means I experience fewer discouraging moments in the long run.

Guest Post: How can you best support your partner?

Sarah & Jack

I get lots of questions from women who feel alone and isolated when attempting to lose weight and get healthy. Sometimes our partners are supportive of the idea of our weight loss plan, but become resistive when we remove the Cheetos from the pantry or need an hour to hit the gym. So for today's post, I've asked my husband, an expert on compassion and support, to share his thoughts on this topic. My question to him? 




Question: How can you best support someone you love who is trying to get healthy and lose weight? 

My wife asked me to do a guest post today about the ways in which partners can best support their spouses on the weight loss journey.  I’m thankful that Sarah feels supported by me and I’m incredibly proud of her success!  I’m also grateful to have lost 30lbs of my own as a result of piggy-backing off of her hard work!  I have a LOT to say on this topic – probably too much!  I’m so enthusiastic about it because Sarah’s journey has reaffirmed for me that self-directed, intentional change around a big challenge in your life is possible – and sustainable!  But you need support to do it.

1. You’re on the journey together.  Embrace change.  

This is the most important thing to remember.  The entire family is involved.  As you’ve probably seen if you are a follower of “Smaller Sarah”, the experience of weight loss is one that touches many fundamental aspects of your life: your food, your time, your feelings, and your relationships – just to name a few.  If you’re not just going for a “quick fix” and trying to create lasting change, this will cause shifts in all these areas.  Be ready for the process to be messy at first.  It’s a lot easier to stay in a familiar routine and you may feel resistance to having to take “her” journey all the time.  (More on this below). The good news is that, as Sarah’s diet, health, and energy levels improve, so do ours.  Our awareness as a couple of the food choices available to us, as well as the implications of those choices, becomes clearer.  Our kids’ diet improves.  We sleep better, feel better, have better sex (TMI?) and generally feel more vibrant, happy, and content. 

I know, I know.  I can hear the voices of resistance now – “This sounds like a lot of work.  I like things the way they are.  I’m comfortable.  I just want to come home and relax.  I don’t want to try the new cauliflower soup.  I want to eat what I like after a hard day at work.  I’ve earned it.  If she’s going to eat differently and make other choices, fine.  Just don’t ask me to change anything about my life!”  When I hear my resistance to giving up something that would help Sarah continue this journey and I come to my senses, I often ask myself, “Do you notice the ways in which she gives up things for you and for your sons every day?”  “Do you notice how giving up something changes her, moves her closer to you, and facilitates many important things in your life?”  Step back for a minute and take a wider view.  If what you are being asked to change “for her” will also benefit you in the long run, why not change it?  It’s your journey too.  Embrace the change!

(Quick Tip:  If you are reading this and interested in trying to get your partner to “go along” on your weight loss plan, do what Sarah did and start small.  In our first conversation, Sarah asked me to watch the kids for 30-45 minutes in the morning so that she could take a walk.  That was it.  It made it easy to say “yes”.)

2. Say "Yes"

Which brings me to my next point: whenever possible, say “Yes”.  “Yes” to a new walking routine.  “Yes” to cutting down on sugar.  “Yes” to real running shoes.  “Yes” to boot camp classes.  “Yes” – as much as possible.  When you aren’t adding external resistance to the journey, it’s easier for everyone.

3. Listen

As Sarah has documented on this blog, there are lots of twists and turns along the path of weight loss.  New and sometimes conflicting information comes to light about diet and exercise.  Unexpected emotions arise, her body feels different, and people react to her in new ways.  Her confidence can sometimes flag and she can encounter larger than expected levels of internal resistance to change.  The most important thing I can do in these situations is to listen.

Listen.  Your presence is really all she needs.  Give her plenty of space to falter, pick herself up, and re-engage.  When you have something to say, listen more.  If she asks you for your opinion, wait until she’s asked at least three times before you give it.  When you do, limit it to one observation.  This is the time to cultivate your inner pitching coach.  When she is in the middle of a competition (especially one against herself) that is not the time to talk to her about the finer points of her technique.  Keep it simple.  Keep her focused on the goal and the next tangible step.  Tell her you love her and that you know she can do it.  Look what she’s already done!

4. Extra credit – Think ahead.  

(I’m still working on this one myself.)  When you have started to master embracing change, saying “yes”, and listening, you’re ready for the big leagues.  Once she’s in a routine with a regimen that is working, find ways to help it along without her asking.  Take the kids for an hour so she can go for a run.  Clean the juicer so she can use it first thing in the morning.  Notice when the supply of lettuce is getting low and bring some home, etc.  These actions communicate that you are behind her 100% and they readily translate into feelings of support.  Think about it - when you come home after work and the kids are happy, or the house is clean, or dinner is ready and waiting for you, how confident do you feel?  Probably as confident as she starts to feel when you think ahead.

So that’s it.  It’s simple really.  Simple, but not easy.  I am by no means perfect at supporting Sarah.  I sometimes falter.  I sometimes get frustrated.  But the benefits I have seen in Sarah, myself, and in our lives together far outweigh my momentary inertia.  After all, she’s really doing the heavy lifting – and not just in boot camp! 

Finally, I want to thank all of you, dear readers, for your support of my wife this year.  Your comments, questions and encouragement have meant the world to her and, when she makes her goal, it will be your victory too!  That’s the not-so-hidden benefit of being a supporter: vicarious victory!  Best wishes on YOUR journey to a smaller YOU!    

How do people respond to your weight loss?

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Question: How do people respond to your weight loss?
Most everyone has been very positive.  Friends and family have been especially supportive. When I announced to my family that I was going to take a year to lose 75 pounds, they all were 100% behind me. My husband was a rock when it came to helping me stay focused on the goal and positive about even the smallest of accomplishments. (I've actually asked my hubby to write a guest post about what it means to support someone who is trying to lose a lot of weight.  So stay tuned!) Losing weight and getting healthy is a strange combination of single-minded, solitary fortitude and open-minded, compassionate support. You can certainly lose weight all by yourself, but gosh it's a lot easier when you have a cheerleader or two.

There is a small group of people, mostly acquaintances and friends of friends, who immediately want to know how I lost the weight. When I tell them that losing the weight was really tough and took lots of determination and discipline, their eyes glaze over a bit. My guess is that they are hoping to hear about a pill or a cream or a video that led me to lose such a large amount of weight. Again, this is just a guess. Then there is a smaller group of people who, when they hear that I've lost 70 pounds, immediately respond with a warning about loose skin or a story about their friend who lost 100 pounds and then gained back 70 and ended up having a bypass surgery.

I have to remember that weight is a very emotional topic for lots of people. It certainly is for me. I sometimes have to be careful when I talk about it. For instance, some people have medical disorders or are taking medications that cause extreme weight gain. They feel powerless and trapped by their condition and are therefore apprehensive to chat about healthy choices, especially when they feel they have none. Additionally, some people are very attached to their food as a cultural birthright (think Southern cooking) and become defensive and protective of their heritage when I bring up the topic of a veggie-based diet.  

I lost weight for my own health and well being by making choices that suited my lifestyle - choices that I could sustain and be happy with. When people are inspired by my process it feels great! When people are put off by my weight loss, I don't take it personally. No matter when their reaction, I always refer them to this blog for a more comprehensive view. Once they've read a few posts, they seem eager to ask questions about my journey and share thoughts about their own. It's important to remember that everyone is fighting some kind of battle, so I always try to meet their resistance or their excitement with compassion and a smile.

Raw and Whole Food on a Limited Budget

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Question: How can I eat raw and whole foods on a limited budget?
This is a great question and I've had quite a few inquiries about this topic.  As many of you know, my son Charlie has medical bills out the wazu and my husband is the only employed member of our family so that I can stay home and take care of our boys.  We, like most American families, have to spend our dollars wisely. So here are some of my thoughts in no particular order:

1. It only appears that you are spending more on your food.  When I shifted my diet to include higher quality whole foods I paid more for the food, but I bought less.  It all came out in the wash. You can spend $2.50 on a bag of potato chips or your can spend $4.00 on a bag of organic Gala apples.  The upfront cost is more, yes.  I don't know about you, but I can put away a big bag of chips in one sitting.  It's a lot harder for me to eat five apples all at once.  So for a little more money, I get a better quality snack that lasts longer and makes me feel great.

2. Eating cheap junk food will cost you more money in the long run.  Heart attacks, diabetes, and worse are really expensive. And sometimes they cost you your life.  I'd rather fork over a little more money now and stay out of the hospital later.  The pay off of good nutrition is a life time of better quality years and more of them!

3. Plan your meals and pay less.  I wanted to save money on my grocery bill so I read a book called America's Cheapest Family: Cut Your Grocery Bill in Half.  The book is not geared towards organic whole foods, but you can apply most all of the concepts to whatever you're interested in buying.  This book has helped me serve nutritious, raw and healthy cooked meals and snacks to my family for about 400 - 425 dollars a month.  Not bad for a family of four.  If you want more details, you can read about it HERE and HERE.

4. Invest in good quality kitchen tools.  Yes, they are expensive and they are absolutely worth it.  I bought a cheap juicer at first and blew it out in six weeks.  Luckily I purchased it at Bed, Bath and Beyond and they have a fantastic return policy. I also had a very generous family member with a Costco card who bought me a Vitamix for my wedding anniversary. So if you have something on your wish list, share it with family!

5. Prepare only one serving per person.  I have cultivated a habit of preparing just enough food so that everyone has one healthy serving. This has saved our family lots of money.  It also has the added benefit of cutting back on portions, "seconds" and food waste. Americans waste far more food than we are aware of. The other benefit is that our family takes more time at the table to enjoy our meal and our conversation.  No one has ever gone to bed hungry.

6. Buy cheaper produce.  I know this sounds like a no-brainer.  Last February, I bought a beautiful mango for 4 dollars.  Once I got it home, I thought "I am an idiot".  So don't be silly and buy out of season tropical fruit.  Buy the inexpensive stuff.  Here is my list of go-to produce and raw snacks.  I always have these items on hand and have learned to make a bunch of different delicious meals using these basic ingredients.

Bananas (I can get them for about 44 cents a pound)
Apples (by the bag is cheaper than by the pound)
Carrots (whole, not in little weird baggies)
Romaine Lettuce
Celery (again, buy it whole and not pre-chopped)
Avocados (I get these at the Mexican food market "Fiesta" - 3 for a dollar)
Sweet potatoes
Almonds (raw and in the bulk section is cheapest)
Walnuts (raw and in the bulk section is cheapest)
Dates (not the fancy kind - just plain dates)
Raisins
Sprouted Grain Breads
Brown Rice and Quinoa

When I began eating this way, I explained to my husband that our grocery bill was going to go up a bit.  Without missing a beat he asked, "How much money would you pay to lose 75 pounds by next year?"  I shrugged my shoulders.  Then he said, "I bet you'd pay a lot more than you're going to spend on better groceries."  When ever I get down about the cost of pesticide-free lettuce or wince at the price of raw almond butter, I remember his words. If you are serious about getting healthy and losing weight, you'll need to make a little investment. Cut back on other expenses if you have to, but start to make your health and well-being a priority.

How did you create your weight loss plan?

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Question: How did you create your weight loss plan?  
The creation of my weight loss plan was an intuitive, experiment-and-see kind of thing. Initially, I did very little research or planning. I just jumped right in by starting a daily walking routine. I didn't want to start with a diet book or an episode of Oprah. I wanted to take real action and start moving - which is what Oprah and the weight loss book will probably tell you to do anyway. Everyone is always looking for an easy way to lose weight. But I knew that real and permanent weight loss would only come one way for me: diet and exercise. (You know, the hard way.)

STEP 1:
Move your body.  Walk. Go outside and put one foot in front of the other.  Your pace, footwear, and route do not matter.  Just get moving.  This will do two really important things for you:  1) It will feel good to move and boost your morale and 2) You will begin to burn calories.

STEP 2:
Stop eating the thing that is making you fat.  Once I established a consistent walking routine, I was free to start expanding my view. I had to do a little investigative work.  I wrote down what I ate for a few days just to see what I was really consuming during the day.  Often times I find that what we think we're eating differs greatly from what we're actually eating.  So write it down to get a true and honest beat on the kinds of foods you are consuming.  So the question is: What is making me fat?  Refined sugar and flour- plain and simple.  I am a sugar addict and always will be.  Most people are.

It was really important to me at the beginning of this process to be free from calorie counting and restrictive portions.  I knew I wasn't ready for that kind of regimen.  So instead of restricting the amount of food I ate, I simply cut out as much sugar as I possibly could.  It was pretty easy to cut the obvious sources of sugar.  Ice cream, candy, Pepsi, venti mocha frappucinos and baked goodies were all the first things to go.  The more insidious piece of the puzzle was all the refined sugar and white flour I was unknowingly consuming.

This is when I started doing some research.  It turns out that sugar (usually disguised as some form of genetically modified corn product) is hiding in almost every packaged convenience food in America.  And I can write with confidence that this kind of sugar is the source of my own weight problem and the cause of our modern American obesity epidemic.  So Step 2 (Stop Eating Sugar) was much more difficult to implement.  It meant a total overhaul of my diet.  Here are just a few things that I ate on a daily basis for decades that contain high fructose corn syrup:

Yoplait yogurt

Most Salad Dressings

Special K Cereal (in fact almost all Kellogg's products)

Most Peanut Butters

Muffins

Bagels

Ketchup

Sodas

Bottled Juices

Applesauce

Whole Wheat Breads

Thomas' English Muffins

Pasta Sauces

Power Bar

Miracle Whip

Ritz Crackers

Knudsen Cottage Cheese

Claussen's Pickles

Kraft Cream Cheeses

Some Campbell's Soups

So cutting the sugar was key.  And when I started doing this, the weight began to drop off at a very fast rate.  The first week that I cut sugar, I lost four pounds.  And when I begin to reintroduce sugar into my diet, the weight loss slows down or stops.  There is a direct correlation (for me and my body) between obesity and sugar consumption.

Question: How did you decide on raw food and juicing?
Once I cut sugar from my diet, the question became "Okay, what can I eat?"  And as I said before, I wasn't ready to restrict my portions or count calories or weigh my food.  All of that seemed a little to involved for someone just starting out.  Someone recommended that I take a look at The Raw Detox Diet by Natalia Rose.  Some of the book is pure crazy talk, but most of the principles are sound.  So I took some of the basics and started to apply them to my meals.  Basically, I could eat as much food as I wanted as long as it was a whole, unprocessed, raw food.  The book had lots of easy recipes that even a non-chef like me could prepare.  So I gave it a whirl.

I noticed a huge difference right away in my energy levels, skin tone and weight loss.  I felt good about what I was eating and I could eat as much of it as I wanted.  It turned out to be the perfect fit.  The thing to keep in mind when trying out a new diet or a new weight loss plan set forth by someone else is that it has to be sustainable for YOU.  If you read something and think, "Well, there is no way I can do that for any extended period of time," then walk away from it.  It has to work for you or you won't be able to stick with it.  And the truth is that no one book or video or lifestyle plan will be your be all end all.  Feel free to pick and choose what works for you. It was so important to me that food remain an enjoyable part of my day.  I love whole foods and salads, but I also love wine, dark chocolate and cooked fish.  So, I make it work for me while adhering to my no refined sugar (or very little refined sugar) policy.  And I'm not a tyrant - I still eat a sweet treat every once in a while.

The Raw Food Detox Diet also promotes juicing - especially green vegetable juice.  But it wasn't until I saw Fat Sick and Nearly Dead (a documentary) that I hopped on the juicing band wagon.  Eating the Standard American Diet for so long depleted most of my nutrient stores.  I needed to heal my tissues and reinvigorate my body at a cellular level.  Juicing was the answer for me.  It is a fantastic way to get a lot of phyto-nutrients and live enzymes into your body very quickly.

Now, 11 months later, I'm still at it.  I still juice most every morning and I eat a partially raw diet.  When I'm feeling low energy and need a pick me up, I just amp up the raw food intake and dial down the cooked stuff.  I am by no means a raw foodist nor do I aspire to be one.  However, these principles have really worked for me over the past year.

How did you know you were ready?

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Question: How did you know you were ready to lose the weight?
Actually, I didn't know I was ready.  My "readiness" came somewhat as a surprise to me.  I was reading something online about a woman who was tired of being overweight.  She was going to blog about her process and was going to start right away.  I thought, "I wish I could do that."  I felt fat and lethargic and under-energized.  I looked at my kids and felt exhausted just thinking about the effort it would take to keep up with them.  But I knew deep down that life didn't have to be this way. So I piggy-backed on the woman who was starting the weight loss blog.  I literally copied her first step and set up my blog that morning.  Smaller Sarah was my first step.

I didn't know what I was doing or how I would proceed, but I knew that I needed to get moving.  So that same day I took a walk - the first I'd taken in years.  All I knew is that I had to start somewhere.  My advice?  Don't wait for the right moment.  Start before you're ready.  Then once you've taken a small step, repeat that step over and over until you're ready for another step.  All I did for the first few weeks was walk.  Once I was confident in my ability to consistently get out the door for a morning walk, then I began to strategize about my next step.


Question: Why were your previous attempts to lose weight unsuccessful?  
I know this sounds crazy, but previously I was always looking for a low impact, easy way to lose weight.  I didn't want a weight loss plan to take time away from what I thought was "my life".  For instance, I took some weight loss drugs in the late 90's and lost a bunch of weight.  But of course when I stopped taking the drugs, which by the way were horrible-terrible-no-good-jack-you-up-then-crash-and-burn drugs (Phentermine), the weight came right back. The other thing that stifled me in the past was my mixed up motives.  I simply wanted to look better.  I wanted to look like other people I knew who were beautiful and thin and attractive to others.  I had no interest in looking like me.  And I certainly wasn't ready to look deeply at my emotional habits, which included binge eating, hiding food and a serious sugar addiction.

Then I had my children and realized that my body was awesome!  I gave birth to two beautiful boys and was able to nurse, nourish and protect them with my body. Not only was this an empowering experience but it also showed me that I was capable of far more than I gave myself credit for.  I also have a very supportive partner, without whom I could not have made the changes necessary for this kind of shift. I think my previous lack of success in losing weight was a confidence issue. In the past, I didn't think I was strong enough to do the hard work required for this kind of life change. I also didn't realize that my weight was a kind of armor I was using to distance myself from a destructive person - a person no longer in my life.  If you want to lose a lot of weight and lose it permanently, you must be willing to examine why you are overweight.  You must become an investigative journalist about the source of your own choices.  (More on this topic tomorrow.)

This time is different because I now know my own worth.  I am part of a true and beautiful partnership that is the center of an entire family.  I know that my actions matter.  I am the one in our family who decides what is on the table at meal time.  And more importantly, I have two young men to raise.  They are looking to me for cues about how to act, eat, think, love and move through the world.  They look to me for key information about their own worth and potential.  So when inspiration finally struck, I was ready to accept with a whole hearted "yes".