Feb 6, 2012

Weigh In - Week 34

There must be some crazy astrological stuff going on up there in the swirling cosmos because this has been a strange week.  My inner state is a pendulum swinging wildly between total exhaustion, mild despair, contented joy and complete optimism and faith in the future.  What does that look like?  I'll draw a diagram for you below:

There is no rhyme or reason to these feelings.  The good news is that I am better able to handle and process these feelings because I am exercising and eating well.   No matter how chaotic life gets, I can always find a reliable "reset" button: a run, a work-out, a clean green meal, a talk with my husband, a smile from my son.

I can also rely on my inner voice.  When I am feeling put-out or a tad hopeless, I ask myself, "Is this true? Is it hopeless?  Is this feeling the truth?"  The answer always comes back as a confident "no".  When I am content and calm in my center, I ask the same question.  "Is this true.  Am I content and calm?  Is this feeling the truth?"  And the answer is always a confident "yes".  We know the truth when we FEEL it.

What does this have to do with weight loss?  Not much, really.  What does this have to do with my journey towards a healthy Smaller Sarah?  A lot.  This journey must be a holistic one, or nothing good can come of it.  I must address the whole Sarah if I am going to make permanent change for the better.  And so far, I think its working.  I'm feeling energized and fit.  My mind and my body are both benefiting from the changes I've made and the changes I have been able to maintain. 

Pounds lost this week: 1
Total pounds lost: 47

The "I Did It" List
ran 5K on Friday morning
ran a mile and walked a mile on Sunday afternoon
went on a date to a vegan restaurant with my husband 
two days of boot camp
ate healthy meals
juiced most mornings

P.S.  This morning I did the monthly physical assessment through my boot camp classes.  I knocked 38 seconds off my mile run and improved in most of the other categories as well.  I was most excited to find that I've dropped an inch off of my hip measurement in ONE month.  Booyah!


Betsy said...

Your self-awareness is awesome and the questions you ask yourself so helpful for me, too! There is also a full moon on Tuesday so cosmic influences, as usual, come into play. Congratulations on your insights and persistence, and, of course, the receding pounds! :-)

Jacki said...

this was an insightful post. and, today, coincidentally, as I was enjoying this other woman in yoga class, I was envisioning drawing what she does as a way of sharing it with others, since it would weird and probably rude to video tape her. lol. so, wow, when I saw your drawing first thing! ha ha!

anita said...

you inspire me so much.
thank you for writing.

you've lost about 50 pounds(!) and a whole inch off your hips in a month---
you're smaller!!! that is the truth.

La Maison Boheme said...

Thank you Betsy, Jacki and Anita. I love this little blog and I'm so glad you're here reading. XOXOXOXO

nrhymes said...

I really enjoy your posts. They are always very insightful and I know I have something to gain from reading them. You helped remind me that's it's not just about losing the weight.